so i guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons   and maybe well never know most of them but even if we dont have the power to chose where we come from we can still chose where we go from there   we can still do things and we can try to feel okay about them   but its much easier to not know things sometimes   things change and friends leave and life doesnt stop for anybody   i wanted to laugh or maybe get mad or maybe shrug at how strange everybody was   especially me   i think the idea is that each person has to live for his or her own life and then make the chance to share it with other people   you cant just sit there and put everybodys lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love   you just cant   you have to do things   im going to do what i want to do and im going to be who i really am and im going to figure out what that is   and we could all sit around and wonder and feel bad about eachother and blame a lot of people for what they did or didn’t do or what they didn’t know   i don’t know  i guess there could always be someone to blame   its just different   maybe its good to put things into perspectives but sometimes i think the only perspective is to really be there   because its okay to feel things   i was really there and that was enough to make me feel infinite   i feel infinite